How I want to be remembered.............

“You are the person who proved that first impressions never last”. These are words uttered by one of my batchmate during our plus delta, an activity during our retreat. I was really wondering what her basis of those words is and she started explaining to me. At first, she thought I am a snobby and unkind person but as years passed by her impressions were changed. From a snobby and unkind person to a very cheerful and friendly individual. I was so flattered when I heard those words. At least I was able to change her impressions at the start. I often hear people saying that at first they thought I am not friendly but later on say that they are wrong. I am so grateful upon hearing these people changing there impressions from a negative point of view to a positive one.

I am actually a cheerful, friendly, jolly, and happy go lucky in a nice way kind of person. But I am also a prideful person. I did manage to snob my bestfriend for nine months. It had even bore a baby. I would like to change that negative side of myself.

I want to be remembered as a person who always wears a smile in my face. I want to live up with the character my classmates had observed upon me. Being a jolly or cheerful person is not easy. There are times that I may appear very happy but deep inside me are hurts and pains hidden. I can say that I am a good “pain-hider” person because I can still manage to smile even in the times that I am deeply wounded. My classmates say that it seems I have no problems at all because I have a very smiling face. In a way, I am happy with that but on the other hand I am just fooling myself. It’s alright because that is what I want to be remembered by my batchmates during our highschool years that even in the times that I am very down, I can still manage to put a smile on my face. I can’t also believe that I am doing that. Maybe I am a very strong person. I can say this because after all the pains and hurts I have encountered I am still existing and smiling in front of everybody. I may appear a person without a problem but I do have problems also but what I do to be able to keep on smiling still is to cry in my room so that when I go out, I would be relieved. It is my defense mechanism and no one can ever change that. It is the reason why I am still alive today despite all of my problems. It is also my edge among other batchmates of mine that I can still wear a smile on my face despite the stress and pressures of being a UPIAN. I am a person of SMILES!